For the first time after almost 2 months yesterday I logged on to the Gtalk IM. It was buzzing. I spent almost 7 hours chatting. I think this will be my record. There was one particular conversation with Rakesh (name changed for privacy).I met this guy almost 2 months back on the internet. The common trait we had was that both of us received an admit from university of Texas, Dallas and were spending considerable time in the UTD communities contemplating our decisions. We exchanged numbers and discussed on many nitty gritty things regarding the job prospects, housing, funding etc., we almost decided upon joining UTD and sharing a studio flat over der.then all of a sudden I was neither picking up his calls nor returning them back. He tried calling me n number of times (n tending to infinity).it was those times I was in utter confusion. Finally I decided on taking GMAT and doing MBA after gaining considerable work experience just a few days back. I didn’t know how to tell about this to rakesh. I felt guilty and sorry for him but I was helpless. It was just yesterday he buzzed me on Gtalk and the conversation was like this
Rakesh: hi ritish! hru? U got admit from ASU?
Me: hi Rajesh. (I didn’t know what and how to tell him. But I was sure I wanted to tell him everything how I felt)
I am really sorry dude....
I wasn’t picking up Ur calls...nd wasn’t replying either....I was in mess....
No....I didn’t hear frm ASU as of yet.... (Infact I stopped waiting)
The reason was I am planning to skip my plans of doin masters....
Lot of thing were in my mind and I was really confused....
Rakesh: ok ra .. No problem.
Me: I am really sorry buddy....
Rakesh: that’s ok
Me: I have caused u a lot of trouble....
Rakesh: nothing like that man... :)
Me: I didn’t know what to tell u...
I really felt bad....
Rakesh: u could have told what u have decided.
nothing to feel bad abt it
Me: ya....I was really confused....nd I didn’t know my decision
Rakesh: ok... no prolem
Not a big issue
Finally are u going to utd?
:)
me: no...Dude....
I am joining tcs....
I am planning to give my GMAT
Rakesh: ok... u r planning take up job
Ok good
Me: I always wanted to do mba...
So thts the main reason I changed my mind....
Rakesh: ok
Me: and der was one blog of an mba student that had a gr8 influence on my mind and eventually made me go for mba...
Rakesh: howz ur project going on?
ok
i knew u were interested in mba
Me: ya....finished it...
Rakesh: it’s better to get some experience
Me: frankly my partner did that... (The project)
Rakesh: it’s a good decision
Ok ... hehehe
Me: moreover I wasn’t interested to do something in technical....that wasn’t my pie
Rakesh: ok ritish... ttyl
Keep in touch
U need any help from there u can ask me... if i go to US.
All the best
Take care
Me: surely man.....
Rakesh: bye
Me: it was very nice of u...
Bye...may be I will give u a sendoff at the airport....
Cu...Bye....
Rakesh: :)
Bye
Me: if u happen to have tym....
chk my blogs.....
www.squaredock.blogspot.com (I never wrote the book named 101 ways to market your blog…J!!!!!)
Rakesh: yah I will.
Me: www.ritztravelspvtltd.blogspot.com (and again)
Rakesh: ok ritish... bye
Me: bye dude....
Why did I put all this stuff here…?
I just wanted to tell how I felt.
Life is full of regrets. No matter how hard we try we cannot change the past. But the present is with us. We have the power to control that. I could have told Rakesh the very first day but I couldn’t for reasons very much unknown. I felt very much uncomfortable in such situations. We have to make sure that we don’t make such mistakes.rakesh was very kind and humble in listening to me(nd even he offered me hlp). Thanks for that.
All the best for Ur future buddy. Hope we meet sometime soon.
Ritz…